Self-doubt does not always come from within, sometimes it is taught.
Dear Survivor,
One of the most painful truths survivors share with me is this: “I don’t know how to trust myself anymore.” That feeling does not come out of nowhere. It is built, crafted, piece by piece, through patterns of gaslighting and manipulation. When someone repeatedly denies your reality, minimizes your experiences, or twists your words until you question your own memory, perception, and instincts.
Gaslighting is not a misunderstanding. It is a tactic of power and control.
It trains you to second-guess your feelings and rely on the abuser’s version of events. Afterall, it is not safe for the survivor to trust their own version of the experience. Over time, many survivors learn to silence themselves and look to others for permission to feel, speak, or decide. That loss of voice is devastating. But here is the truth I want you to hold close: your intuition is still there. It may be quiet right now, but it is not gone.
You can learn to hear yourself again, through the gaslighting.
Rebuilding self-trust takes time, and it starts with honoring the moments when something feels off, even if you cannot explain why. If you are ready to reconnect with your inner voice, The Recovery Roadmap is a resource I recommend. It offers structure and support to help you move from confusion to clarity, one gentle step at a time. Seek out resources and support. Download this resource, it is completely free.
It is never too late begin again. You are not broken, you are healing and growing. Your experience is valid and real.
Blessings and healing,
Catrina
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